Story of Lara
I want to tell you a story about myself: about my life. I want to say that married life is not easy. I discovered this at the tender age of 15. Before getting married, I did not live my childhood. My parents were very conservative to the extent that I could not get out of the house. All my days were lived inside my parental home. I only felt as a child back when we were in Damascus at school and with my friends. My closest friend was my younger brother. When we fled to Lebanon, I was not able to continue my education; my parents did not enroll me in a school. I only reached the 5th grade. I really wanted to continue, but I am sure my husband would not accept that now.
One day, my parents in law saw me and came over to ask my hand in marriage for their son. I totally refused the idea at first, but then I accepted in hopes of a better life. We got engaged for 8 months and then got married. The wedding was nothing out of the ordinary; nothing like what I imagined it to be.
I thought that life would get better after marriage, as everyone told me. It wasn’t the case for me. All day, I am by myself; I entertain myself with the television. I sometimes read and cook. The relationship I share with my husband is pretty average. There’s no communication between us, and we don’t understand one another. He takes decisions by himself. Most of the times, we argue a lot mainly because of children and his parents. It only gets solved when our parents get involved. I only wish that I can live a sweet life with my husband and that we get children because we don’t have any currently.
I still feel that I need a few life lessons even now as a married woman. Even before getting married by one day, my aunt taught me all there is to know about sex with all the nitty-gritty details and what might happen on the first night. I do believe it’s important for a girl to know these things.
I used to think that marriage is easy, but now, I know that it’s a huge responsibility. A girl should know marriage means before getting into this relationship so that both parties are on the same wavelength.