Story of Amal
My name is Amal. I am a Syrian girl, and before the war started, my childhood revolved around my studies and my friends. They were my whole life. We ran away from the war, and I didn’t continue school after the seventh grade. I really wanted to continue my studies, but I couldn’t since we came to Lebanon. My life in Syria was much better, and my childhood was everything to me. It all went away from me when I got married at a young age. I was only 15 years old.
I married someone that I didn’t know about until 15 days before my wedding, and I just saw him 3 times before my wedding. We didn’t even talk together. My wedding day came and nothing was like I wanted. They didn’t allow me to do anything I wanted to. Everything went according to my husband and his parents’ preferences. I didn’t know what was happening, and this scared me.
After the wedding, only the first month was enjoyable, then everything is becoming to be torture due to arguments with my husband and his family along with a lot of domestic work. I only enjoy myself when I clean around the home and when I see my friends. I don’t even feel the love that’s between my husband and I. Both ways, love is forbidden in our culture. It’s a taboo to love.
The relationship between my husband and I is only limited to normal conversations and that I obey his every command or else huge problems will arise with a lot of physical abuse. I got used to this way of life.
I didn’t know anything about sex and what might happen during the first night together. I was really surprised even though my friends told me that things happen during the wedding night. I didn’t know the details, and I do believe that a girl should know everything before she gets married. I feel that sex is just to please the man and not the woman.
If I could advise other girls, I would tell her not to get married early or not to get married at all. She should continue her studies and live her life just like I had the ambitions to finish school. A girl should experience her childhood since this is the phase where she can do whatever she wants with no restrictions from anyone. When she gets married, her man controls her.